lets throw some of my songs up on lj just for the sake of..song??

idk

maybe ill post the story behind each songs lyrics soon too

start with the most known

"september"

so just sit back and ill tell you
all you want to know
ill be here waiting for you
when youve got no place to go

well watch the world around us
and well see everybody change
but i can promise you one thing..
we will stay the same

as i recall the time weve spent
i cant believe how quickly time passes by
ill try and pretend that there wont be
miles between you and i

soon ill be out of state
and out of time
but you wont be out of my mind

even if we have our days,
we'll see them through
there will be so many more to come.

on the contrary to what you say
not anyone can take your place
no matter how far away i am
ill still remember your face....


"line, please"

the boy with the smile
is everybodys friend
but hes not what he seems

you can fake it for a while
but when it comes down
you realize its all a dream

if everybody loves to be around him..
but they never know when to believe him

hes just cutting off old ties, and going through the motions
soon hell find himself alone
he covered up his lies with his false emotions
but now he knows his covers blown

i said its been some time since ive
seen your face aroud here
seems like you just dissapeard
and left all of us here, so youve got nothing to fall back on

just so you know, your true side is showing
might wanna cover it up,
seems to be the direction youve been growing

ive watched you build your towering ego higher everyday
but you should know that empty building blocks cannot hold your own weight.

if its the truth youre looking for,
you wont find it anywhere
and if you choose to hate me then..
i choose not to care.

"the longest one night stand ever.."

the way you kiss..
the devil muyst have made a deal with you
but hell, itself..
has got nothing on you

everyone has seen us,
but i bet no one can tell
that when im with you..
i can be myself..

i can be my self destruction

this is the coldest
that decembers ever been for me
and if looks could kill,
you would be charged with thid degree

i wont speak to you.,
because i dont want to be heard
but you told me my actions were..
louder than my words..

so ill be motionless

dont tell me theres a way to make this right
we both know where we'll be by the end of the night

you were covered in lies while you were undressing..
baby, youre just another mixed blessing

so tear apart the lies that hold me strong,
ive found another part of me that doesnt belong
after all this time ive spent with you

you told me we're finished and we are done
but you cant finish something thats nev er begun
look what hate has turned this love into

tonight, im tearing down your disguise.
i see heart attacks in your eyes...

more to come laterrrr


signing off...

even though it seems like im not being heard, im writing this. thats the point of journals..i guess. they werent really made for feedback..jsut a way to express

but anyways

lately ive been thinking alot about last year around this time. i had no idea time would go by so quickly and here i am living a completely differnt life. last fall was honestly the best time of my ENTIRE life to this point. although i am very happy with my life right now, i would really give up anyhitng to relive last fall again.

i found myself listening to some music i use to listen to nonstop last year and it triggered memories and one thing lead to another and here i am again dwelling on all these thoughts and whatnot, when i shuld just be out enjoying myself.

i have alot of friends down here, but no one really clsoe to me. it cant happen overnight..but i really wish i had someone to share my hapiness with. ive been talking to jamie alot lately, and she wants to move down here. her and i are looking into apartments that would be good for us and not too expensive,,and its exciting to think about moving out on your own. she hates ohio and finally realizes that living in that hell hole will lead you nowhere.

but all in all, im still enjoying life....its just hard to think about ohio and all its given to me..if i didnt despise the damn place id still be living there. i dont ever want to return, but i am for my friends. i know as soon as i leave itll be back to square one with the whole moving on with life ordeal

hoohahhhh idk. thats all i have to rant about today

hope everyones doing okay back home. havent really kept in touch..its hard to keep track of everyone and maintain life, as im sure theyll say the same thing..specially with college and stuff

yup...thats it



signing off

WOOOOOOOOOOOO its been quite some time, eh??

blah blah blah yeah things have changed, i fuckin moved to the south. and LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. the weather is amazing, i work alot but it isnt bad, easy shit, justgotta keep the right mindset and you can stay happy. money is good, but you wont have any when youre rebuilding a car like i am, so i got no money saved up..but i WILL be rolling a tight whip :D.

but back to life...i miss everyone back home just as much, but i am dealing with it alot better than i used to. we are all going our seperate ways, and im fine with that. the ones who care and i care about will stay in touch, even though i cant talk to them everyday. i prefer not talking everyday though..we all have our own priorities to tend to.

my "love" life is occupied b lauren..who lives in hubbard...ehhh i hate long distance shit but i have feeligns for her..idk its really just a bunch of mixed emotions..and i feel stuck.

college is something i want to attend, i am projecting next fall ill start..dont know where, why, or what for, though. still gotta take my sat/act whatever the fuck it is..and i dont have transcripts..fuck..im not ready for it. but i have a good career right now and im happy

today i was out working on my car, and it was like afall day outside. it was sunny as hell, perfectly clear with a cold breeze. and it reminded me fully of ohio. it made me ni a better mood, which im still in right now..idk if its good that my old lifes memories get me in a good mood...but nontheless, the weather was good.

i have an unhealthy obsession with my car..oh well..music still means alot to me. i dont plan on trying to make a careerout of it, hoenslty. unless i was drumming for a band (which i would love). i just cant see myself playing as a solo artist for a living. idk why...i just want someone to experince this with, i suppose

well thats my useless entry to try and catch everyone up on my "life"


idk who still uses this anyways..and i dont even know who im friends with on her and who made new accounts

RENEW WITH ME AND LETS GET BACK IN TOUCH :D


signing off.